I wish i was perfect then everything around me would be perfect
Not the way it is in my life
I just wish it was
I wish i was perfect and in control like the persons on TV and in Photo Books
I Know My imperfections are caused by my inability to control the amount of food i consume.
Thats why I stuff myself like a piggoat
Thats why i got sick tonight and threw up the hotdog i eat
Because my tummy is full of food
All i had to do was eat Half
i had to eat the whole HotDog
and i bought 2 of them all dressed
Good thing I gave the other one to Chris
About 3,500 cals each hotdog
I dont know why i did that when i have ensure at home
250 cals each so all i have to do is drink 2 each day and avoid food
I had to stuff myself full
All i do is think about food
Thats why im fat and why persons dont like me
I wish i was in control over the amount of food i stuff into myself
Regardless of the amount of walks i do around the SeaWall
i will never burn the ton of fat off my body
I Am What I Am
That person who cant stop eating or thinking about food
Thats who i am
Its freaking me out
For the Most part
A small brake is all i needed from the online world
Now Refreshed and awakened
I'm back to the online grind
video of Blue Grouse
by Martin Vasil
Today was such a perfect day.
Mel, Danica, Fabian and i went to English Bay for a few hours and we ate all Beef Hot Dogs.
I ate almost 3/4 with ketchup, mustard and sauerkraut then Mel drove me home after we stopped at A&W.
Danica ate 1 teen burger with fries and mel and Fabian ate some Yam Fries, I ate 5 with some spicy sauce.
I was pleased when i got home.
I dont understand how i forgot Mouse at home.
All i could think about was when are we going home.
I tought someone was going to take My Mouse.
I told Mel and her reply was were ate the beach and your Mouse is home we cant do eneything about it.
I wish Mel would have drove me home to get her.
But i would have mised the amazing race.
so we had to stay at the beach like Mel told me
The day was perfect except when i got home, The Amazing Race was Not on but my Mouse was in my bag on the floor but I got throw up sick. The frys and that sauce with white loung stringy stuff went on the bathroom floor and in the toilet in my apartment. I had to clean it up then take a nap. That white stuff looked like worms. Thats what i tryed to tell Dr Birmingham.
My head feels light and i know that was going to happen. I dont understand why i ate as much as i did when i know it will just make me sick. I don't eat for most of the past 2 weeks and i only drank 4 ensure each day and all was fine.
I dont understand why i stuff myself or why i lose control over the amount that i do eat.
A complete lack of control over what i eat and thats why i'm overweight.
You are what You eat
I only have myself to blame for it.
We don't Appreciate the Slanderous comments Martin's followers started to flood us with and they definitely Won't be posted.
He was warned Not to Attempt to cancel his appointments with Dr Birmingham or to talk back, If he did he would pay a price for it.
He tried to cancel his appointment for Monday, When he was questioned about what he did, Mememe had the nerve to talk back and was slanderous and called us PigGoats with the F__ word.
(He started to use the F__ word over 12 weeks ago and we want to know who taught him such a profane word and why they would teach such a word to a person who plays with stuffed toys! That word is strictly reserved for Adults!)
The price for doing that, is 4 days in his room to help him think about what he did and why. Tomorrow would be day 4.
Fortunately for him he has an appointment Monday with Dr Birmingham so he can go out and play in the forest or around the ocean for today only, but will remain home after his appointment Monday.
We all have to pay a price for not doing what we are told,
Why should this exclude MeMeMe.
Because of the Anorexia or his computer or life skills or that he is sick?
It should not exclude him.
If he wants to be Unruly we will post it on the networks we own and pay for and he will pay a price for it.
We pay the bills, Not Him!
If he wants to be in control of his life we are fine with that.
Unfortunately for Martin if thats what he wants, he will have to find a bunch of cash or a bunch of jobs to pay the bills. His phone bill is over $150.00 every 4 weeks, Same as his Hydro $79.00 and his websites + networks $1500.00 each 4 weeks that we pay for, Not to exclude a bunch of other bill's.
I think you get the picture.
So stop pestering us with comments that support an unruly person.
Martin is not a little Angel 24/7 belive us.
He like most Boys can be extremely unruly and hard to control.
Talk about Me Me Me, My toys and My stuff.
MeMeMe now wants to get a safety deposit box (have mom pay for it) at the bank for his toys after he had a bad dream. A girl in his dream took his stuffed Mouse and did what most of us want to do, Rip it apart. He takes that stupid stuffed mouse with him everywhere. If he forgets it at home, he has panic attacks and cant sleep.
Martin, Martin, Martin
MeMe who would ever want to touch your boy germed stuffed mouse and toys that (Not to sound rude) Stinks like you and should be washed. It smells just like a stinky boy and its a Girl mouse, Pink. When he plays with that mouse he seldom washes his dirty nose picking ass scratching fingers, Except when Mom reminds him and he sleeps with that mouse every night.
So why would any girl want to take your boy sweat stenched germ toy from you?
We tried calling but your not answering the phone.
Your grounded for the next 4 days because you tried to cancel an appointment with Dr Birmingham a few days ago and you had the nerve to talk back, Rember.
Now you'll be in perfect control of your kingdom of toys and be the king supreme of your room.
Best be home and in your room.