Anorexia Destroys Lives



Anorexia Kills after it slowly destroys the lives of talented person's

This is Not only about Martin,

But all who suffer from and have had their lives affected by Anorexia or Bulimia.

Over 180,000 Women and Men die each year from Anorexia and Bulimia,

Ana and Mia kill without discretion.

Martin remains helpless

as Anorexia slowly eats away at him.

His weight is 114 lbs at 5 feet 10 inches.

Please help bring attention to the devastating affects Anorexia has on persons and Family's.


I started drinking Ensure

im trying to dring 4 ensure each day but it freaks me out. I would prefer to eat 1 tuna sandwich a day. I dont understand why i have to drink such a vast amount of Ensure, All its doing is making me Fat. I wish i was perfect and not overweight. All I Do Is Eat Tons of food each day, So why do i need the ensure. If U looked at me U would understand Thats why i avoide and dont speek to persons BECAUSE U DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!! Ugggggggg

#Apoinment with #DrBirmingham at #UBCStudentsClinic


I arived at UBC Students Clinic at 1:00 the staff were pleased to see me as was i.

Last time i was at UBC was loung ago.

I went around the side to sit and wait. A few moments later Dr Birmingham arrived and walked me to his office. We brushed up a little on my summer then the apoinment started. Dr Birmingham explained im not the only person who was refused from his group and explained he started an outreach called

Dr Birmingham & Associates

he was talking when i interupted and told him he was correct about everything. The Anorexia the restrictive behavrols and the rest of the stuff Dr Birmingham discribed in me. 

so i agread to have a loreta scan tomorow at 1:00

we talked about the new clinic and his willingness to help me overcome the Anorexia befour its to late. He told me a bunch of other patients were refused treatment at Saint Pauls Eating Disorders clinic.

They never supported me or helped me or others only gave us false hopes and broken promises of treatment so why should i support them.

Dr Birmingham talked to me about a part of me that dissociates from food and worsens when persons are around me.

He is correct about the way i behave around food and how i see myself.

I tried to explain to him something positive and good will happen for me if i just keep doing what im doing.

He says its a destructive voice that wants to destroy my talents and finally mylife. He calls it a voice of dissolution thats out to destroy me. A voice that tells me what im not and refuses to acknowledge what i am sick. A voice of destruction that only wants me to starve to death.

I dont understand enney of it as i explained to Dr Birmingham when i look at myself its not what i see, I see a Fat unhealthy person who is lazy and a glutton that should spend the rest of his life trying to burn all that fat off and a life time is not anouf time to do that.

My mom and sister are correct all i do is stuff myself like a piggoat and thats why im not in control when im around food, All i want to do is stuff myself with it. My dad would tell me the same Your eating me out of the house or my socalled friends would ask me if i  wanted to be a sumo fighter. ugggg i hated them so verry much

Regardless part of me says im sick and i dont like it when it comes to mind i would prefer if that fat piglet would keep playing with its toys and stayed out of it. Thats the reason im fat because of that little shit head that keeps disturbing me with I'm Hungry i want to eat. Thats all i get from it.

I have to go for a walk and burn some of this fat that just won't go away like that voice telling me im hungry i want to eat

No one's stopping U so go and eat

Im going for a walk

So Thats whats going on in my brain and its just like Dr Birmingham Explained it.

Now all i have to do is let Dr Birmingham figger out the best way to treat the Anorexia .

Its #NotFair

I dont understand why my Family or Dr Birmingham cant see me for how i am, Fat & unhealthy. Thats why i have to walk around to burn fat.

As u can see on all i do is eat like a pig.

So how can i possibly be anorexic when im fat. What part of that cant they seem to understand.

I dont have Anorexia related eating habits or problems

Im fat and the only treatment center i should be in is for overweight persons like myself.

Not a treatment center for Anorexia OK

If Dr Birmingham or U ever put me into treatment i will hate u for the rest of my life and i will never speak to u again and i will never let u play with my toys and i will blog about how u hate me.

I will

I have this fat lump on my arms that won't go away & this fat that rolls over my pants & the size 26 jeans are now tight after i wash them. It was not like that before i started drinking all that ensure regardless if u say its just milk. Milk can make u fat so why do i have to eat tons of food each day. It grosses me out & u know that.

Its Not Fair that you're doing this to me

I'm in control not U and i dont need treatment or a passport

What part of Food and i dont get along cant u grasp.

Not fair

I dont like food and it hates me and i dont want to blog about it. all i do is think about food and i hate that.

Im going to my room and play with my toys and forget about food and all of U.

Its freaking me out.

I need to think about other things then food.

#McDonalds #Angus #Burger #GrossOut

#McDonalds #Angus #Burger #GrossOut


your #AngusBurger gave me the #McShits Yesterday


The Night Befour

what gives with that

All it took was 3 small bites befour it was trown away


 it was

#tasteless with hard dry bread & totally #gross

Gross Gross Gross

Dint even look like your advertisment

A Wast of $6.00

I dont get it

Regardless how hard i try not to be

i will alwas be what i am

Overweight and Lazzy

Went out to #eat with #Melane Vasil

I went out late last night to eat with Melane, It was way past 9:00 when Mel picked me up. We ate 1 beef hot-dog with with spaghetti sauce and fries on it. I ate half, even that was way too much for me. After we ate we talked for a short time and she drove me home. Wonderful night. Early i did some stuff in the garden. I transplanted some Plants from a garden that is going to be ripped apart and the house bulldozed.

i drank 1 #Ensure a few moments ago

I need to try and sleep but all i want to do is stay up. If i can nap for a few hrs i can do more stuff when i awaken. I dont want to eat and i dont want to start thinking about why Dr Wanis wanted my food plus i have all this food from the pass week in me creating body fat that i dont need. It alwas starts with a little and next you know your hosting a body fat party that keeps getting bigger and bigger. The walk around the upper part of the sea wall did 0 for me. The second time around was the same as the first.

I need to express to Dr Birmingham why i need to go for more walks.